Changes, they seem to be the only constant thing in life today. I have been thru many changes over my 34 years. Wow sometimes I can't even remember I am 34 lol. Recently, well in October 2007 I married my best friend after a very long road. We should of married years ago. All I ever wanted was to be a mom and a wife. I got the right person to share all this with finally. After 10 years with someone you would think marriage wouldn't make that big of a difference but it did in my life. We wanted to have a big family and I am no spring chicken so we began trying immediately. I watched as everyone around me had no problem conceiving, some who I felt maybe weren't suited to be parents or even wanted kids, and I grew sad and wondered why not us. My husband and I are good people, we have good faith and a good relationship, so it was hard to not ask God why not me. Well in March our greatest dream came true and I found out we are expecting our first child. It's been life changing for me. I'm terrified now of course. I don't even know what to think sometimes. I wonder if I will be a good mother, i wonder if I'll get the chance. I went from sheer excitement to fear a few times because it appeared things were not going that well with the pregnancy a few times. Things seem ok now but sometimes I wonder if it's ok to plan and hope or if I will be disappointed. I just pray to God every day to keep my child and me safe and that I will find the strength to deal with whatever comes my way over the next 6 months. I don't know much about the blogging world but I thought maybe I'd give this a shot and see if I can meet people who may be something like me:)